i wonder how it works that i can manage to get so much work done and still have so much time to slack off. for example, i slept in until 10.20 this morning (the second morning in a row, which is unusual for me), ate a hearty breakfast of eggs, toast, and orange-tangerine juice, had some interesting conversations with my brother, sat on the kitchen table and watched the chickadees eat from the birdfeeder for about twenty minutes, drove to pick-up shane at his house so he could keep jeff company, and started doing my homework around noon. now i'm like, finished with everything. yesterday i finished wrapping all my christmas gifts, wrote my ap lang paper, did my newspaper homework, and cleaned the entire fishtank (which took two hours in itself), yet i was still sitting around bored for another three hours.

i suppose i could try blogging a bit more often. it seems i can only find the time on sundays and thursdays, which is odd. i could always, like, try leaving the house, i guess. but what is there to do? where would i go? i know my friends are all tied-up in their homework loads right now, so to try and plan a social outing with any of them is a waste of my time (not to say, of course, that just sitting here isn't). oh well. it'll sort itself out soon enough.

i can't believe that christmas is nearly upon me. i mean, i'm all prepared for it and everything, and james is still holding up strong in the living room (he's been there long enough for me to take not of him, too), but something just feels lacking. i know it's just the childish lust that comes with christmas eve and the likes, and i know i won't ever view this holiday in the same sense again, but i wish i could. i know things'll be better once i pass all my gifts out to my friends and feel accomplished. giving is the best feeling i know, whether it be material goods or in an emotional sense. it's just nice to show people i care about them, because i know i can be cold at times and make fun of my friends when it's completely uncalled for. they should know that i always need them there for me, and i'm sure they do for the most part. maybe everyone just needs a little reminder every once in a while.

in the meantime, i really think i have to start taking a better advantage on all this wonderfully fluffy snow. i've only gone sledding on a few occasions, and i've stayed close to home by only going down my hill or our neighbor's driveway. the outdoors keeps beckoning me, though, and the snow isn't stopping in an attempt to draw me outside. the snow must not feel i'm not doing a very good job paying attention to it because it just won't stop falling. maybe i'll go round up jeff and shane and we can build a snowfort...or maybe i'll just do it myself. or, better yet, i can go through snowballs at the windows on that gross new house they're building (which, to make things worse, now has the most hideous light-yellow siding in the entire world). maybe i'll go back to that spot under the pine trees and take another nap, if i can manage to find it again. maybe i'll call adam and force him to come over here even though he has a ton of homework to do, just because the outdoors seems to be more enjoyable when he's next to me.

"life is like a ten-speed bicycle - most of us have gears we'll never use."